thudakam

Arodu parenjalum viswasikkatha oru thudakkamayirunnu njangalude. Paresparem kanatheyanu njangal paricheyappettathu. Nalla oru suhruth bandham sadharana pole oru pranayathilekku vazhimari. Avalude bhootha kalethe ella karyangalum arinjukondu thane njan avale estappettu . ella karyangalum ennu parenjal , mosham onnum alla. 3 masam neendu ninna oru affair . pakshe aval othiri anubavichu. Ellam ennodu thurennu parenjeppol enikku adyam sahathapam thonni. Athu pennedu ishtamayi. Ente thamasa kalenju njan serious ayi. Aval othiri thamasichittanengilum ennodu sammathichu, avalkum estamanennu. Annu date 19/9/2006. athayethu njanjal paricheyappettittu 6 masangelkku shesham. Enikku prayem annu 20, Avalkku 18.


October 02 / 2006 – njangal kanuvan theerumanichu. Annu pooja edukkunna divasamayirunnu. Njan ravile 9 manikku veettil ninnum thirichu. Busil anu yathra. Aval annu thiruvananthapurethu hostelil anu ninnu padikkunnethu. Njan alappuzhayilum. 4 manikkoor edukkum ethan. Aval ottekku varenemennanu njan parenje. Orikkalum thonnatha oru tension manassil. Njan businte munpil anu erikkunnethu. Edekku njan avale vilikkunnundu. Pakshe avalude roommate anu phone edukkunnethu, karenem aval bathroomil anu. , tension karenemanu. 1.10 ayeppolo njan ethi. Thampanoor station anu sthalam. Njan erengi aval nilkumennu parenja sthalethu koodi njan nadennu. Thirekku kurevanu. Pettenu ente kannukal pettenu udekki, atha athu aval thane. Enne aval sookshichu nokkunnundu. Njan mind cheythilla. Pakshe avalude koode avalude roommatum undu. Njangal kandu, paricheyappettu. Aval adyam ennodu chodicha chodyam- “ enthinanu enne engane nokkune “ enikku chiri varum eppol athu orkumpol.
Njangalku roommate inte vaka oru treate. Restaurentil vechu aval avalude adyathe gift thannu. Oru chillu koodu, athinte akathu thilengunna vellam ozhukinadakkunnu. Koottathil oru amayum amaye njanumayi tharathamya peduthiyethu enthinanennu eppozhum enikku manassilayittilla. athukazhinju njangal velikku poi. Kurenerem samsarichu. Chernirunnu.

Avide floating restaurant il vechu njangal orupadu samsarichu, bhaviyil poruthekkedukal undakaruthu ennathu kondu paresparem ellam parenju. Karennem sadharena oru prema bhandham pole ethu verpiriyaruthu ennu enikku nirbhendhamundayirunnu.
Orikkelum cinema serial fieldil , news reporter fieldil pokeruthu , Karenem enikku athu sankalpikkanavilla. Ethu parayuvanulla karenem aval padikkunnathumayi bhanthamullathukondu thane., athupole njan paditham kazhinju oru jolikitti ente kalil nilkan pattunna kalamakumpol matreme ninte veettukarode njan chodikkan varu. Ethokke ayirunnu ente demand .. Avalkku agrahamundayittum, enikku vendi aval annu athellam upekshichittu. Enikku vendi mathram

Njangal kurechu nerem nadennu, samayam vaiki. Njangal thirichu avideninnu. Autoyil anu yathra. Njan avalkku ente adyethe gift koduthu. Kavilil oru umma. Aval njettippoi, karenem pratheekshikkatha oru gift ayirunnello athu. Etharayi, njan kodutha gift aval thirichu thannu. Bakkariyil kayari avalude hostelile kootukarikalkku kurechu sweets vangiyittu njan thirichu. Annu amdengumpol othiri santhoshamayirunnu manassil. Enthokkeyo nediyethu pole. Oru malaghaye swanthamakkiyethupole.


Njangalude lokem

Annu thirikkumpol njangal paresparem theerumanichu, kanunnethu velleppol mathram. Pakshe a theerumanam njangelkku nadappakkan kazhinjilla. Njangal kandu. Pinneyu m pinneyum. . kanathirikkan vayya ennayi. Pinnedu karekkamayi. Hill palace, Ernakulam to Alappuzha- busil, Ernakulam to Alappuzha- bikil, pinnedu njangalude karekkamaellam bikil ayirunnu- ernakulam to thiruvanenthapurem, munnar, angane othiri othiri.. oru divas am muzhuvan njangal bikil thane karengiyittundu.
Njangal 5 rathri oru kattilil kazhinjittundu, parenjal viswasikkathilla karennem onnum sambavikkathe. Enikku nirbhandhamundayirunnu, aval adyarathri ente maniyarayil varumpol parishudha ayirikkenemennu. Annu njangalkku manassilayi. Njangal snehikkunnethu sareerath alla manasine anu. Onninnum athine mattuvan kazhiyilla., allengil a divasangalil palathum sambavichene.. njangal njangalude lokam aswadikkunnu….


vazhakku njangalude edayilum


Njangal orikkal polum vazhakkittittilla ennu parayilla, karenem njangal oru divasathil ethrathavana samsarikkumo atrem thavan vazhakkidum. Enikku bhayenkara desyamanu. Pakse avalku ariyam enne engane thanuppikkamennu. Sarikkum aval ente swanthamanu…

Poruthakkedukal

Njan project cheythathu thiruvanenthapurethu vechanu. Valare kashtappettanu njan avide akkiyethu. Karenem aval annu avideyanu padichirunnethu. Pakshe njan vicharichapole njangalkku kanan angane pattumayirunnilla. Avalkku leave adukkan pattumayirunnilla. Karenem attendance shortage undayirunnu. Enikku vishamam thonni karenem. Avale kanuvan matremanu njan vannethu thane, pakshe a avalude thottaduthu undayirunnittum enikku kanan pattillennu parenjal??

Ente jeevithathilapratheekshakal mattimaricha divasam, MARCH 10, Friday.

Avalude veettil sampathikamayi kurechu budhimuttukal anubhavikkunna kalam, pettennu kurechu paisayude avasyam vannu. Aval karyangal parenju, adyam njan sahayikkamenu parenju , enikku ureppillayirunu enikku sahayikkan pattumennu. Karenem a thuka enikku valare valuthayirunnu. Orikkal aval ennodu parenju e paisa kittuvan vendi aval channelil pokumennu. Enikku sahikkan pattunnethinekkal valare valuthayirunnu athu. Enthu vila koduthum enikku athu sanghadipiche pattumayirunnullu. Aval ennodu venemennu avasyapettirunnilla, pakshe aval angene poyal?
Njan palisakku paisa vangikkan theerumanicu. 11 nu kodukkamennu ettu. March 10, ente oru swapnam koodi yadharthamakumennu vicharicha divas am. Ponmudiyil pokan theerumanichu. Pakshe thale divas am aval vilichu, avalkku athyavasyamayi veettil pokenemennu parenju. Karenem parenjilla. Paisa athyavasyamanennum parenju. Njan avale railway stationil konduchennakki. Ente ATM cardum koduthu. Paisa athil ninnum eduthal mathi ennum parenju.
Sathyam parenjal paisa ATM l undayirunnilla., nattil ernakulathuninnum ente accountil edamennadu agent parenjirunnethu. Pakshe annu second Saturday ayethukondu edan pattiyilla . ayal enne athu ariyichethum ella. Annu vaikunnerem aval enne vilichu, ennittu njan avale chadichennum parenjittu phone cut cheythu. Njan thirichu othiri sramichu, aval eduthilla. Avsanam njan boothil ninnum vilichu. Appol oru ananu phone eduthethu enniittu parenju aval busy anennu. Ente manasikavastha arkum oohikkan pattilla. Avasanam aval phone eduthu ennittu parenju. Avalkku paisa kitti ennu. Athu avalude cousin ayirunnu. Ayal sahayichu. Pakse paisa thirike kodukkenemennu. Njan parenju ne nale kodukkamennu parenjolu. Enikku jeevanundengil nale njan paisa tharum ennu. Ente friendinodu paisa kadam vangichu annu rathrei 7.30 kku njan thiruvananthapurethu ninnum bikil thirichu. Oru rathri muzhuvanum thaniye vandiyil, kollam ethiyeppol nalla mazha. Pakshe vandi nirthiyilla. Pulerche 4.30 ayeppol muvattupuzhayil ethi. Avide stay cheythu. Othiri anubhavichu, pakshe sreekuttikku vendi anello ennu ortheppol santhoshamanu thonniyethu. Adutha divas am njangal mariegn drivel vechu kandu. Paise koduthu. Avalude cousinum vannittundayirunnu avide. Pakshe enne kandilla. Ayal avale vilichu. Appol njangal sharjah kudichukondirikkukayayirunnu. Avalku venda, mathi ennokke parenju aval athu kureche kudichullu. Njangal pettennu purethirengi, njan marininnu. Ayal vannu, njan pratheekshikkathe, aval pettennu ayalem vilichukondu bakeryil kayari mukalilekku poi, kure samayam njan purethu wait cheythu. Oduvi waiter 2 sharjayumayi mukalilekku pokunnethu kandu. Othiri sangadam thonno. Karenem njan vangichu koduthathu avalkku mathiennu parenjittu poyittanu eppol. Matravumalla njan veliyil wait cheyyuvanu , athu arinjittum. ?? aval vannu. Njan pokunnu ennu parenjittu njan ponnu..

Aval paisa vangiyeppol masam thorum aval 1000 vechu tharam ennanu parenjirunnethu,
Adyathe masam njan chodikkathe thane aval thannu. Pinnedu athundayilla, njan chodikkarumillayirunnu. Enikkariyam atrem prayasamanu avalkku veettil.
Pakshe oru varumanamillathe enikku pidichunilkan pattumo? Kadakkar chodikkan thudengi, palisa koodi, e cheru prayathil kaikaryam cheyyan pattatha avasathyilekku karyengal neengithudengi. Pakshe avale njan budhimuttichilla. Karenem enikku sahikkam pattum, pakshe aval pavamanu.
Enikku masam thorum veettil ninnum ayechu tharunna paisayil ninnum njan veedinte vadaka mathram eduthittu bakki kadakarku kodukkumayirunn. Thamasiyathe pattini ayi. Bhakshenem 2 divasam koodumpol oru nerem ennayi. Ellaverodum kadam vangichu, arkum thirichu kodukkan pattiyill. Ellavarum enne veruthu. Evideyum kaliyakkapettu.
Pakshe ennalum chillara paisa koottivechu njan avale vilikkumayirunnu. Enikku food kazhikathyum pidichu nilkamayirunnu, pakshe avalude swarem onnu kettillengil enikku sahikkan pattillayirunnu. Avasanam njan mobile vittu, mothiram panayam vechu, bike panayam vechu. Pakshe… etranal
Avasanam oru reethiyilum pattillennayi, ente course kazhiyarayi.mothiram edukkan Avalodu njan kurechu paisa avasyapettu., adyamayi. Aval koottukariyodu vangichu tharamennettu. njan ennum vilichu avale ormappikkumayirunnu. Parenja divasamayi, njan avale vilichu aval parenju kittillennu thonnunnu ennu. Ennittu ennode avalude friendine vilichu chodicholan parenju avalkku chodikkan pattillenu.. njan enthu cheyyum??
Njan enikku vendiyayirunno?
Atrem nalum njan avalude achanodu chodikkan parenjirunnilla, pakshe enna vare etra vazhakkittittum, ente avastha valare mosamayittum aval avalude achanodu chodichilla. Avalude achente karyam vanneppol njan thayzayappedunnu.

Pinnedu orkkal avalkku kittanulla paisa aval vendennu vechu. Valiya abhimanam. Enikku vangichu tharam ennu parenju parenju avasanam aval parenju, avalku athu nanakkedanennu. Appol njano? njan pazhaya karyangal vellethu parenjal njan kanekku pareyukayanennu pareyu.. njan paisayum mattullavarum alla valuthayi kandirikkunney, avalanu valuthu…enthe aval enne manassilakkathe poyethu?


Poruthakkedukal avarthikkunnu

Ente manassu muripeduthunna pala sambavangalum avarthikkappettu.
Aval oro divasavum, enikku thalparyamillengil polum ella karyangalum thurennu pareyumayirunnu. Allengil avelkku samadanamudakillennu. Annu avalude pureke oru payyan eshtamenennu parenju nadakkumayirunnu. Paksha njan athu karyamakkiyirunnilla. Paksha avan orikkal samsarikkunnethu aval enne kelpichuthannu. Annu njan avalodu parenju venda, ethu sariyavilla . eni samsarikkenda ennu. Aval anusarichu. Kurechu nal kazhinju avnte achan marichupoi. Aval poyirunnu. Njan parenju avan ini nine vilikkum phone edukkaruthennu. Annu adyamayi aval enne dhikkarichu. Aval phone eduthu..
Njan kure vazhakkittu.
Athu marennu njangal randuperum. Pakshe avalude cousinte house warming nu aval avaneyum friendsineyum ksanichu. Pakse aval parenju avan varilla, oru formalitikku vrndi vilichethanennu. Angene a functionte thale divas am ayi. Njan avalodu chodichu avan vanno ennu, aval parenju aval allethe bakki ellavaru mvannu ennu. Vaikunnerem ayi aval parenju avalum avalude friendum kodi veettilekku pokuvanennu.
Kurechu kazhinju njan vilicheppol okke aval parenju busy anu pinneedu vilikkam ennu. Annu 7 mani ayeppol anu aval veettil ninnum cousinte veettilekku poyethu. Nerethe thane avalude veettile ellavrum angottu poyirunnu.
Annu rathri oral enne vilichu, srree yude riend anennu parenju. Annu a payyan avalude veettil vannirunnu ennum, aval avane kanananu veettil vannethennum. Njan viswasichilla. Karenem aval orikkal polum kallma parenjittilla ennathayirunnu ente viswasam, matravumalla avalkku ennill nunnum onnum olichu vekkan kazhiyilla ennum.
Njan vilichu avalodu chodichu, adyam ethirthengilum pinnedu aval sammadichu. Ennodu parayumayinnu ennu parenjanu aval ethirthethu. Pakshe etrem nalum pattathethu avalku ennu sadhicu.

Poruthakkedukal avarthikkunnu

Njangal vazhakittirunna oru divas am.
Njan 2 divasam vilichilla. Pinnedu njan vilikkumpol anu ariyunne aval avide oru chanelil pokunnu ennu., etrem naal njan anubhavichethu? Njan pedichechu? Ellam sambavichu. Njan ethirthu shakthamayi.. njan marikkumennu vare parenju.. pakshe oru bhalavum undayilla. Njan thottu poi

Poruthakkedukal avarthikkunnu

Njan nirbhandhavum vaasiyum pidichittanu avalude project alappuzhayil akkiyethu. Evide oru news paperil anu oru msam work cheythethu.
Evide join cheyyunnethumu munpe njan avalodu parenju. Evide kitten pokunna parichayavum, sauhrudengalum ellam evidem vittu pokumpol avasanippikkenem ennu, karenem ente pennu orikkalum varan Padilla ennu njan vicharikku field anello ethu. Aval sammadichu.
Kurechu divas am kazhinju , aviduthe oralude perumattam sariyallennu enikku thonni. Njan vilikkeruthennu avalodu parenju. Pakshe aval ennodanu prathikarichethu. Njan othiri vazhakkittathinu sheshamanu aval sammadichethu, ini oru contactum kanilla ennu. Pakshe pinnedum avar samsarikkumayirunnu, project kazhinja sheshavum. Njan arinju athu ennennekkumayi avasanipichu.
Masangal kazhinju, njan puthiya mobile connection eduthu, avalkkum eduthu koduthu. Njangalkku thammil samsarikkan free ayirunnu. Bill njan adakkenem.orumichanu bill varunnethu. 2 masam kazhinju bill koodunnu, othiri ayi. 3 masam kazhinju valare koodunnu. Njan calls control cheyyal thudeng. Ennittum kuravilla. Avalodu njan chodichu, avalkku onnum ariyilla. Njan viswasichu, karenem njan ennekkal viswasikkunn alanello.
Oduvil detail bill edupichu, njettippoyi. Bill kooduthalum avalkku. Njan chodyam cheythu. Njan nerethe parenja payyanumayi anu samsarem koodutha, athayethu samsarikkilla ennu parenju enne viswasippicha lumayi, matravumalla, ayal paricheyappeduthiya veroru alumayi. Aval parenju suhruth bandham matre ullu ennu.

njanumayi vazhakkitturunneppol avalku avar aswasamakukayayirunnu, appol njano?.

njanumayi samsarichu vazhakkittu , enikku phone vekkenem samsarikkenda ennu parenju vecha divasangalil ellam , aval avare vilichu. njanumayi samsarikkumpol averkku msg ayekkunnu. pulerche eneettal adyam avarkku msg,allengl miss call ennittee enne aval vilikkumayirunnullu. njanumayi samsarikkathe errunna divasangalil 12 thavana avare vilichittundu. vayyathe hospitalil kidenneppol, vayya ennu parenju phone vechittu, rathri avare vilichu.... ethellam njan ariyatheyum, njan venda ennu parenjavarumayi. 3 masam engane, oru karyavum marechu vekkan pattatha ente sreekkutty ennodu ethu marechu vechu nadennu. ethellam njan detail bill edutheppol kandethanu. aval orikkal nishedikkukayanengil njan kanichukodukkam

pakshe ennittum avale njan aviswasichilla. ennodu marechu vechathil matreme enikku vishamam ullu. eni ennum athu oru duswapnam matrem . vere aranengilum prathikarikkuka ethu reethiyil ayirurikkum ennu pareyendello. Enikku eppozhum aval utharam tharatha chodyangal undu-
1) oru karyavum oru divasathil koodu thal ennodu pareyathe erikkam pattatha ninekku etrem valiya karyam 3 masam manassil sookshikkan patti?
2) Ne parenju njan sammadikkathethukondanennu, angane njan sammadichillengil njan ariyathe cheyyumo?
3) Ennodu kallam pareyam pattatha ne enthinu 3 msam kallam parenju?

Utharam ethayirikkum- Enikku kavithakalum mattum aswadikkan kazhivilla , pakshe avarkku undayirunnu


Njan avare vilichu vazhakitu. Aval adyam thettanennu parnju sammadichu. Pakshe kurenal kazhinjeppol athu sariyayirunnu ennu pareju. ente manassu cheetha ayethu kondanu enikku athellam thettayi thonnunnathennum parenju. Orikkal njan ayale vilichu , ayalude samsaram avale kelpicheppol matreme aval athu thettayirunnu ennu viswasichullu. athuvare ente vakkukal kelkathe avare viswasicu aval. Athuvare etrem snehikkunna njan oru thettukaranakkapettu

avide thanne veroru sambavum undayi, aval project complete cheythu veetilulla divasam, aval e-mail njanum vayikkumayirunnu. pettennu oru karyam ente sredhayil pettu . aval project cheythukondu erunna ofcl ninum Hashar enna alude mail, njan thurennu nokki. ayal oru photo attach ayechirikkunnu. ethanu a photo --

njan nokki ethu thetti vannethano ennu, alla ayal ethu avalkku matrem ayechethanu. njan ethu kandittu veru erikkeno?

njan avalodu karyam parenju, photo kanichu koduthu. avalkku viswasikkanayilla. njan eni mail cheyyaruthennu parenju ayalkku oru mail cheythu.... athode theernu ennu karuthi ellam pakshe...

kurechu nalukal kazhinju, Ayal avale vilichu kalyanamanennu parenju. pandu engane cheythethu ariyathe pattiyethanennum, kalyanethinu varenemennum parenju.

njan avalodu parenju pokenda ennu. pakshe pettennanu avalude mind change ayethu. njan pattillennu parenju vaasi pidicu, aval kettilla. ente swabavam mosamanennum, enthokke sambavichalum pokumennum parenju. aviduthe sauhrudengal kku aval ennekkal vila kalpichu. etrem cheytha avan eppol parisudhanum njan vrithikettavanu. annu njan a kalyanethinu vannal aval chathu kalayumennum, eni 12 divasathekku mindillennum parenju. aval kalyanethinu poi. enikkariyam enne verupichukondu a kalyanethinu poyethu enthinanennu, a 2du perku vendi matremanennu vaiki njan thiricharinju... avalkku enthu kitti? . marakkatha oru vedana matram sammanichu enikkaval. 1 masam matram parichayam ulla 2 perkku vendiyum, phone vayi paricheyepetta oralkku vendiyum aval Unniye avaganichu, vedanippichu, ozhivakki,............... .

Enikku ellam marekkenemennu agrahamundengilu a place kanumpol alapuzha beach kanumpol manassu pidayunnu.........
Poruthakkedukal avarthikkunnu
Orikkal vazhakkayirunneppol, oralodum parayan pattatha vakkukal aval enne vilichi. Sahikkan pattiyilla. Eni avarthikkillenu aval satyam pinnedu cheythu.

Poruthakkedukal avarthikkunnu

Etrem nalayi, njan veetil parenjittilla. Athayethu njan avalude veettil alochanayumayi chennittilla. Njan veettil soochippichathu matreme ullu.. aval pareyum njan chadikkananennu.. avalude vazhakkum ethu thane….

Ini karyam pareyam
Ente achanum ammayum kurechu reserved mentality ullevaranu, karenem 2 perum adyapakar thane. Njan avalodu parenjirunnethanu enikku swantham kalel nilkunnethuvarene kakkenemennu. Eppol enikku vayassu 23um salary 5000. njan engane veettil avatharippikkum??

Poruthakkedukal avarthikkunnu


Eppol aval work cheyyunnu, samayam ravile 9 mani muthal 5 mani vare. Veedu doore anu. 1 manikoor kooduthal venem ethan. Interview il aval samayaethe pattiyanu samsarichethu. Avar sammadichu. Karenem njan nerethe avalodu parenjirunnu enthayalum, avar 5 mani kooduthal work cheyyanemennu parenjal joli vendannu vekkenem ennu, annu aval ennodu thirichu oru chodyam chodichu..”etta njan angane work cheyyumennu ettanu thonnunnundo “

Work join cheythu. Ellavarkum santhosham…

Aval permanent ayi, pakshe work time 8.30 mutha 5.30 vare. Aval ennodu chodichu njan pattillennu parenju. Aval vaasi pidichu, avalude vaasiyil ennum thottittulla njan e pravisyavum thottu. Njan sammadichu, oru vyavasthayil. 7. manikku munpu veettil kayarenem….

Kurechu divas am kazhinju, sadharana pole njagal 3 divasam vazhakkayirunnu. Athu kazhinjeppol, njan arinju avalkku promotion ayi, front officcil
Vaikunnerm 6 manivare work cheyyunnu. Njan thakernnupoi. Matravumalla receptionil anu work. Ethu anpiller sahikkum ethu?

Njangal vazhakkayi , avalkku ethu mattan pattilla ennu parenju, appol ennoodu nerethe parenjethellam? Veroral parenjuttu veno avalkku nerethe veettil kayarenemennu thonnan?

Enikku sughamillathayi – avalodolla desyam karenem njan marunnum bhakshanavum kazhikkatheyayi… njan avalude official chennu, official ennu parenjal gatil njan avalodu deshyapettu…

Oro divasavum njan pratheekshichu……

Enikku vayyennarinjittum aval…….

Enikku vayyandayittu 10 divasamayi,, eppol avlal avalude jolikku, alla a aramanikkoorinu vendi ente avsatha kandillennu nadikkunnu. Etrem naal njan verutheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee………………………….

Satyam arinjukooda....
njan e parenjathum, pareyan pokunnethum ellam ente matram kazhchappadil ninnukondu matremanu. chileppol avalude bhagathayirikkum sari.
enthayalum, aval ente koodulleppol, enthu parenjalum swargam thanne anu.
avalude a chiri enne branthanakkum, ellam marekkum......
Enthokke ayalum enikku aval marekkanakatha kure nimishengal sammanichu. arum enne ethepole snehichirunnilla, eni snehikkukayum ella
pakshe aval enne vittu pokumpol ??




New;
april 09- 2009
Ennu njan diagnosis centre resultinu vendi kathirikkunnu. Njangal ennale rathri samsarichu.

Aval enne othiri cheetah vilichu.
Etrem nalum kandathil vechu ettavum cheethayay al njananu.
Aval manasu kondum sareeram kondum nashikkan pokunnu, njan karenam
Ethinellam utharavaadi njan anu..
Eppol ennodu veruppanu, oru vazhipokkente sthanam polum ella
Orikkalum vilikkillennu sathyam cheythethokke vilichu.

Joli vendannu vekkanalla, samayathu neretha veettil ethenemennu njan vaasi pidichethinu, enikku ethu kelkkendi vannethu…
Enikku vayyandayittu onnu thirinjupolum aval nokkiyilla.


Ennu aval oru condtn vechu.. njan veettiil parenju sammadippikkenemennu..
Njan ente achanum ammakkum vendi avale thazhenjennu. Ennalum oru karyam lokathu oralum ennepole avalude achanum ammakkum vendi kashtappettitilla

Aval agrahichathellam nedi. Njan aruthu ennu parenjirunna karyengal ellam aval cheythu. Njan verukkapetta ellam aval nedi. Ennu njan arumallathayi. Enikkum oru manassundennu aval vicharichilla, athilanu aval kathi kuthi erekkunnethennum. Ellam kazhinjittu kshama chodichu varumpol njan elam sahikkenem…

Njan theerumanichu urappichu, njan kalupidichittum, njan e avastayil ayittum, njan marunnum foodum kazhikkillennu parenjittu, enthinu chakumennu parenjittum., oru mattavum ellathe enne cheethavilichukondu enne avahelichukondum, njan vannal jeevitham nasikkumennu parenju kondu , enikku ninnekal a joli mathi ennu parenju, ennum a joli cheyyunna sreekkuttiye njan manassukondu engane snehikkum?

pinnem njan vilichu, aval othiri maari. orikkalum vilikkan padillatha vakkukal vilichu.........

Aval enne branthamayi snehichirunnu, athu ennem branthanakki.. avalku pakerem vekkan elokethu onnu thane enikilla…. Athrekku snehichirunnu avale….

Pakshe aval .. ente malagha ayirunnu… unniyetta ennu vilichukondu chinungunna enthe swantham sreekkutti.. ennekkal valuthayinno avalkku ellam? Ente snahathekklal vilakodukkavunnathu avalku vere undo??
Aval poi enna sathyam ulkollan enikku pattunnilla. Naluvarsham, …. Aval poi…… enne vendathe……

judgement day- April 11 - 2009

ഇന്നു ഞാന്‍ അവളെ വിളിച്ചു , ഫോണ്‍ എടുത്തില്ല . എനിക്ക് സംസാരിക്കാതിരിക്കാന്‍ പറ്റുന്നില്ല . എത്ര ആയാലും എന്‍റെ ശ്രീകുട്ടി അല്ലെ ? എത്ര പിണങ്ങിയാലും എന്നെ വേണ്ടാതെ ആകുമോ ?
എനിക്ക് സംസാരിച്ചേ മതിയാകൂ . ഞാന്‍ കുറെ മെസ്സേജ് അയെച്ചു. അവശ്യം ഇല്ലാതെത് ആണ് അയച്ചത് . അവള്‍ ഫോണ്‍ എടുക്കുമെന്ന് കരുതി . ഞാന്‍ വിചാരിച്ച പോലെ അവള്‍ ഫോണ്‍ എടുത്തു .


പക്ഷെ എന്നെ അവള്‍ തകര്‍ത്തു . മോശമായ പല വാക്കുകള്‍ ഉപയോഗിച്ചു . ഞാന്‍ അവളില്‍ നിന്നും പ്രതീക്ഷികാത്ത വാക്കുകള്‍ , ഒരു ആണും സ്വന്തം പെണ്ണില്‍ നിന്നും കേള്‍ക്കാന്‍ ആഗ്രഹിക്കാത്ത , പ്രതീക്ഷിക്കുക പോലും ചെയ്യാത്ത വാക്കുകള്‍ , അവള്‍ ഒരിക്കല്‍ അതിന് കൊടുക്കേണ്ടി വരുന്ന വില അറിയും . എന്നെ അവളില്‍ നിന്നും ഇ സംഭവം അകറ്റുമോ ? . ഇനി എന്‍റെ ജീവിതത്തില്‍ ഒരിക്കലും വരില്ലെന്ന് അച്ഛനെ പിടിച്ചു സത്യം ചെയ്തു .

പോയി എല്ലാം ............... ഞാനും ................ ഇതുപോലെ ആര്‍കും അവസ്ഥ ഉണ്ടാകാതിരിക്കുവാന്‍ ഞാന്‍ ദൈവത്തോട് പ്രാര്‍ത്ഥിച്ചുകൊണ്ട് നിര്‍ത്തുന്നു .

ഇനി ഉണ്ണിയും ശ്രീകുട്ടിയും ഒന്നിക്കില്ല .

Date - 14 - 04 -09, 

Ente ammooma marichu, ravile 4.30 nu . 

avale vilichu, eduthilla. pinnedu oru message kitti. 

njan vilichu, pakshe avalku sangadamo onnum undayirunnilla, ennodu oru aswasavakku polum parenjilla. pinnem vazhakkittu, phone vechu